So low, never knew how much I didn't know,
Oh, everything is uncharted.
I know I'm getting nowhere, when I only sit and stare like..
4th October. Rough day. Disappointment, procrastination, anger.
Do you ever have one of those days where you don't feel like doing anything at all? Nothing seems to be falling in place and you can't pin point what would make it better? Not even food. We all know food makes things better but no, not this time.
I've been "all talk no action" for a very long time and I think it finally hit me today, that if I don't push myself, I'm just going to be stuck at this very crap pace and will be complaining to myself about how I wish I could do it, but I don't end up working towards doing it.
Compare where you are to where you want to be, and you'll get nowhere
Writing this and telling you this feels useless, feels like more talk. I mean, I do want to keep a track of both my highs and lows and see if there is a way to fix it. I remember seeing a thing that said something the along the lines of "Don't tell people your problems because 80% don't care and 20% are glad you have it"
I'm going refute that statement because I reached out to 2 people today and honestly, it lifted the mood. It did help.
Today after feeling like crap the whole day, my mom told me there were some puppies near by so I went down for a walk and decided to call an old friend. Let me tell you how good it was to be outside, trying to coax puppies to come to you and failing haha, taking in the sunset and talking to someone who just gets you.
So walking outside, talking to people always helps. Also, the soundtrack from One Tree Hill works too :)
