I was listening to Lukas Graham's 'Take the world by storm' and I was thinking about how I wanted to live in the states for a year. There is no way I'd migrate there because, Malaysia is always going to be home for me. Even if it's turmoil.
The reason for living in the US for a year was to attend the events I would like to someday hold here in Malaysia *cough* courtesy of Genius at work. ;) Flying back and fourth might be even more expensive, but I haven't done the calculations just yet. :P
Looking at the costs, damn son, I'm going to need about RM100k or so. That's for rent for a year, at 800$ a month, 1250$ a month for food, travel and all that haha. Where on earth am I going to get that sort of money! So I pushed the idea at the back of my head for a bit. Maybe get GAW up and running and just save money. See in a couple of years if I still want to do it.
I do want to take the world by storm and I know I will be able to do it, I just need to push myself. Hustle is the word. If you want it, go for it, right? However, I know my weakness is procrastination.
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The worst thing is that, I've talked about how I want to change (for years) and yet I'm still where I am, standing still.
Hustle is going to be a very important thing this semester because I'm writing a research paper for my Final Year Project. *yikes* Who knows, maybe if I hustle enough with my FYP, I might find enough of that hustle to push towards making things and not worry about perfection.
I honestly don't know what's holding me back, but I'm pretty sure it's being lazy. Also the fact that I have to edit my vlogs and see my face :P It's not self hate but it might sound like it. We all know that we are our own worst critics.
Be fearless Suemitraa, you can do it!
