Uncharted

So low, never knew how much I didn't know,
Oh, everything is uncharted.
I know I'm getting nowhere, when I only sit and stare like..

4th October. Rough day. Disappointment, procrastination, anger.

Do you ever have one of those days where you don't feel like doing anything at all? Nothing seems to be falling in place and you can't pin point what would make it better? Not even food. We all know food makes things better but no, not this time.

I've been "all talk no action" for a very long time and I think it finally hit me today, that if I don't push myself, I'm just going to be stuck at this very crap pace and will be complaining to myself about how I wish I could do it, but I don't end up working towards doing it.

Compare where you are to where you want to be, and you'll get nowhere

Writing this and telling you this feels useless, feels like more talk. I mean, I do want to keep a track of both my highs and lows and see if there is a way to fix it. I remember seeing a thing that said something the along the lines of  "Don't tell people your problems because 80% don't care and 20% are glad you have it"

I'm going refute that statement because I reached out to 2 people today and honestly, it lifted the mood. It did help.

Today after feeling like crap the whole day, my mom told me there were some puppies near by so I went down for a walk and decided to call an old friend. Let me tell you how good it was to be outside, trying to coax puppies to come to you and failing haha, taking in the sunset and talking to someone who just gets you.

So walking outside, talking to people always helps. Also, the soundtrack from One Tree Hill works too :)

Take the world by storm

I'm writing this as I sit in the Campus Radio studio. We can't go on air today because there is an event happening outside. Some people on campus already hate us due to the fact we have crappy speakers. Hey, the DJ's can't do anything about it ok :P You've got to talk to management about it.

I was listening to Lukas Graham's 'Take the world by storm' and I was thinking about how I wanted to live in the states for a year. There is no way I'd migrate there because, Malaysia is always going to be home for me. Even if it's turmoil.

The reason for living in the US for a year was to attend the events I would like to someday hold here in Malaysia *cough* courtesy of Genius at work. ;) Flying back and fourth might be even more expensive, but I haven't done the calculations just yet. :P

Looking at the costs, damn son, I'm going to need about RM100k or so. That's for rent for a year, at 800$ a month, 1250$ a month for food, travel and all that haha. Where on earth am I going to get that sort of money! So I pushed the idea at the back of my head for a bit. Maybe get GAW up and running and just save money. See in a couple of years if I still want to do it.

I do want to take the world by storm and I know I will be able to do it, I just need to push myself. Hustle is the word. If you want it, go for it, right? However, I know my weakness is procrastination.

:(

The worst thing is that, I've talked about how I want to change (for years) and yet I'm still where I am, standing still.

Hustle is going to be a very important thing this semester because I'm writing a research paper for my Final Year Project. *yikes* Who knows, maybe if I hustle enough with my FYP, I might find enough of that hustle to push towards making things and not worry about perfection.

I honestly don't know what's holding me back, but I'm pretty sure it's being lazy. Also the fact that I have to edit my vlogs and see my face :P It's not self hate but it might sound like it. We all know that we are our own worst critics.

Be fearless Suemitraa, you can do it! 

OMG It's May! But I wrote this in March.

As usual, the year is flying by! Here's what's new with me;

1. This article on procrastination is on point and you should check it out.
http://waitbutwhy.com/2013/10/why-procrastinators-procrastinate.html

There are a total of 3 articles, one leading up to the other, do read it if you feel you procrastinate. It surely helped me :)

2. I want to get my website up and running and start getting my internets on. Aside from the fact that I'm letting you down, yes you, reading this, I'm also letting myself down. Setting myself up for expectations and not bothering about it.

3. I just saw the work load for this semester. Suffice to say, if I make it out of this semester alive, I will throw a party :P

For the first time in my degree life, I passed all my subjects last semester! Hurray! It's a rare thing, because I usually end up flunking 1 paper or so, then resit it and sometimes I pass, and sometimes I don't.

I need to learn to be a better human. Gonna end it there. Trying to surprise you guys this weekend. Let's see how that goes.

Happy New Year 2016!

Hello Internet! It has been far too long since I last wrote a blog piece. HAPPY NEW YEAR 2016!

I was watching a video from Casey Neistat today. This vlog here.

 

At some where a little after 3:30, Casey mentions a quote,

"Never let perfect be the enemy of good enough"

Watching that entire clip of Casey talking about this, got me thinking about how I do things. My past vlogs have been mediocre. All I remember was, wanting to get it uploaded before Wednesday was over, as it was a Vlog On Wednesday. Perfection was NEVER a thing with it. I just wanted it to be up. There was no standard for my vlogs. Now when I look back, oi, that has to change.

This year, I'm trying to see what medium works best for me and my craft. In the hope, of putting out good quality vlogs. Yes, I like story telling. I've also gotten over the fear of writing because I'm reading more. On the writing side, I feel that I just need to refine it. Let's hope that I can work on that because I have a research paper to write starting May or September this year.

On the video side however, filming takes time, but I love it. Once I have a solid time table for life, I'll be able to vlog more often. I convinced my parents to turn my brother's room into a studio (pictures by the end of January once it's all set up). I want that room to be a place when you go in, BAM! You want to get work done.

So at this point, I'm no longer going to wait for something perfect to make . If I have the time to write it, I'll write it, throw in some pictures if needed and hopefully it is good enough for me and to you reading this.

I can't remember if there was a time where I waited for perfection. I have been a perfectionist. It's both a good and bad thing. The good; you know you're work is going to be so good and you're going to be proud of it. The bad; it might take a long time and if you're not in the mood, it may not even come out at all.

I guess that's where I'll end this vlog. I will not talk about resolutions because they are so meh. I did however, find something awesome that Sophia Bush reposted from the instagram account : i am her tribe

You all know by now that I'm not one for making resolutions. I am, however, a big believer in setting intentions. My friends @iamhertribe hit the nail on the head so perfectly today that I'm going to go ahead and repost what they wrote, and wish you all an incredible, focused, narrow & deep, beautiful year ahead. Put your action where your heart is.
・・・
Be easy on yourself.
Don't rush to write down half-hearted resolutions + force accelerated change on your life, all in effort to make the January 1st mark.
Now is a time for reflection. For pausing. For learning. For letting go and transcending.
What is heavy? What is light? What would you like to see shift?
Create an intention, a positive calling, your own personal spark of magic that will manifest itself. All rooted in loving self, then back it all with your action.
#iamhertribe

Happy 2016.

I met Ben Brown!

Ladies & Gents,

As I've mentioned in my previous post that during my free time, I love to watch Ben Brown's daily vlogs. This guy has inspired me to get a Canon G7X to vlog, (only while I'm on holiday, because my daily life isn't as nearly as interesting as his xD ) a penny board, (the regular penny & the penny nickle) and just go out and live life :)

On Monday the 11th, his friend Jeremy Loops, a musician from South Africa came to perform as Islington Assembly Hall. I bought my tickets after I found out Ben was gonna be there (haha) and of course because of Jeremy. Check out his music right here > Jeremy Loops youtube page

I didn't get my tickets on time, maybe it was because I ordered it too late? Anyway, ticketweb was awesome enough to let me pick them up at the event itself. My ticket arrived in Malaysia on the 9th of May. I just got into London that day, haha.

I took an Uber to Islington Assembly Hall because I thought I was running late. I was initially supposed to take public transport, but as usual when I'm on holiday, I take it easy xD

Here are some of the photo's from the night. The UK Travel vlogs will be up on my youtube channel by next Sunday, the 6th of June. All photo's were taken with the Canon G7X. On a side note, when I took pictures of Jeremy performing, they looked OK. As usual, once you see it on a big screen, it was shaky :(

Jeremy Loops! 

Mr.Ben Brown! 

Matthew Miszczack aka SP (Secret Pocket)

Samatha Brown! Ben's sister

Jeremy was awesome, I forgot to get the name of the 1st opening act :( the 2nd were The Pierce Brothers who are from Australia, Check them out right here > Pierce Brothers. They used a didgeridoo during the performance, which was pretty awesome.  

Just wanna add on that since I will be doing the daily vlogs, the blog posts will probably be separated into food, sight & sounds and stuff like that. I know having both of them together, with the vlog will be redundant, so bare with me while I try to come up with a solid format to make it easy for everyone ;) including myself who will be making the content.

Have a good week everyone!

We will now resume our regularly schedule programming. Thank you for your patience!

Greetings fellow earthlings. I know it has been a very long time since I've posted a blog entry. Truth be told, it takes a while to get inspired, especially when you're doing absolutely NOTHING.

Here are some of the updates in my life since January of 2015.

1. My brother got Married in March. YAY!
2. I enrolled myself for university & classes begin in May
3. Just before I start my university, I am taking a cheeky little trip somewhere.
4. I've been watching A LOT of videos on youtube. Check them out if you haven't heard of them ; Casey Neistat & Mr. Ben Brown
5. I just bought all of the Fro Knows Photo video guides (hoping to finish learning stuff before April wraps up.
6. We are building a pool for Pepsi. Yes, you read it right. We're in the process right now. Dad started without me, so I don't have a timelapse video but I will make a video explaining the build. 
7. I've sent postcards to friends around the world. Something about writing on paper that seems very calming, you know compared to typing on the keyboard. :P
8. The mid year purge of household items is taking place. Here is to giving away more things, buying less items for myself & saving money.

Also, in reference to the title of the blog, I am really hoping to step up my game this year & buy a domain for myself. The only way I'm going to do this, is by writing consistently & perhaps talk about relevant things. I can only hope it kicks off the way I want it to. 

As far as schedule programming for 2015, here are the days you might wanna take note off ;)

Wednesday - Vlog on Wednesday at www.youtube.com/iamsuemitraa

Thursday - Throwback Thursday (first Thursday of the month) at www.youtube.com/iamsuemitraa

Sunday - Sunday Blog at iamsuemitraa.blogspot.com

It may sound like a little but I know, with procrastination, it will be a killer. So, stop procrastinating Suemitraa, it's not good for you! 

On a side note, here is a very relatable quote for inspiration. Big ups to the designer, Kyle Robertson.
Click on his name to check out some of his work. I found Kyle's images on tumblr while searching for some inspiration. Have a good week everyone!

HAPPY NEW YEAR! 2015

My last blog post was on the 5th of September. No post about my Birthday, Christmas or New Year. To think that I actually wanted to get a domain for my birthday last year. *shakes head*

Greetings fellow Earthlings. I come in peace (well actually my mind is anything but peaceful right now) :(

I liked having a system. Things to do & actually getting it done. However, I feel that I don't have the drive. I'm not sure is it because I haven't been hanging out with some of my favorite people, haven't done something amazing.. I actually feel like a plastic bag, drifting through the wind, wanting to start again. Yes, I wanted to quote Katy Perry's Firework ;)

I am finally at a crossroad; to go back to University and get a a degree OR try at find someone who will employ a Diploma holder with a 2 year (perhaps going on 3) and explain that damn gap.

The former sounds like a good option, honestly because then I won't have people question me about the gap. I've mentioned in previous blog posts, I have that gap because I wanted to work part time & my dad did not believe in that & here we are back at square one with me feeling like crap.

Thank you Jim Rohn for that inspiring quote.

My brother is getting married in March. The January session for Uni has just commenced, so if I do decide to go back to school, it will be in May. Part time job, here I come.

New chapter + Friday Filler

I want to make it a point, to write when I can without distractions. I need to re-evaluate some things and most importantly, have a schedule I can follow.

I am currently living with my brother and doing my internship at a digital ad agency. Talk about hitting 2 birds with one stone; moving out and getting a job. What comes along with this package? Cooking for my brother and I! It's not a problem, it's just that it requires some planning for groceries and meals for the both of us.The horror.

I can wake up early, sometimes even without the alarm! :) The only thing I miss, is coming home to house with a dog & parents to talk to. We talk over the phone, but, let's face it, I'm a people person. I need people or dogs to function. le sigh

So what is Friday Filler all about? I will be blogging about life/personal entries on Friday. Not saying that Sunday's Blog post is going to be any different, it's just that with social media & shizz, blog post may or may not be interpreted in the wrong way. Long story short : Friday is personal and Sunday is all fun and games! Travel and things. :)

Speaking about travel, can you believe it has almost been a year since I did my crazy 1 month in US trip? I cannot believe how fast time is flying. It's not cool! I mean, one moment you're 17 and you're getting your life in order and before you know it, you're 24 and this is your life. 

Always remember you can change your circumstances, you have the choice. Wanna go skydiving? Tell someone how you feel? Learn a new skill. Yes, I'm also talking to myself when I blog. :P 

I just really want things to flow properly; making vlogs, writing blogs, reading my books (audioble looks really tempting), exercising, eating right, etc. It is possible, I just need to know how I can make it happen. Time to draw a table! 

“The person you want to be does exist; somewhere on the other side of hard work and faith and belief. And, beyond the heartache and fear of what lies ahead” - Lucas Scott.

Satellite Call

This one's for the lonely child
Brokenhearted, running wild
This was written for the one to blame
One who believe they are the cause of chaos and everything

1. Dishonor on your family, dishonor on you, dishonor on your cow, should you get a job in retail.
2. Your ideas were actually great, but I had to hear it from someone else for it to make sense.
3. Everyone else is moving on with their life and then there is you, stuck in a rut.
4. Can't keep any friends since most of them are asses. Hence, trust issues & the frustration of telling anyone the long stories and why you don't exactly have a best friend.
5. Let's compare you to someone and make you feel like crap. *thumbs up*
6. Might as well kiss your dreams of everything you ever wanted goodbye. You're not going to get it anyway.

Thank you everyone for a wonderful performance! You did great.

Wilmington (September 2011) Part 2

I promised pictures of food and other things that we did in Wilmington. Could I just say that, I didn't take decent pictures of my food; it was out of focus and I'm embarrassed. It was also my first time taking my DSLR on a journey, as I'd only gotten it a few month before the trip. #genius.

After meeting Shantel, we went for lunch, generally hung out with Lisa, her son Grayson & her friend Josh. Then she dropped us back at the hotel, kept in touch, cause on Tuesday, we're going to try to meet Antwon Tanner (he played Skills), Lee Norris (he played Mouth), Sophia Busy (how can you not know Brooke Davis :P ) & Austin Nichols (Julian Baker).

A friend on the inside told Lisa that they would be filming at the River Court on Tuesday morning. I told Lisa that I will meet her there, but then suggested that she better pick me up downtown, just in case there is no boat around that time shuttling people from the downtown area to the River Court. Lisa picked my mum and I up & we were on our way to watch some filming!

Lee Norris & Antwon getting ready for a scene

They only put up the backboards when they are filming, so other people can't play when they 

need to use the court. The WB was renting this basketball court  from the battle ship. 

DUN DUN DUN, TRAILERS! No we didn't go near it, so we don't know who was inside. 

We did see the guy who played Xavier. 

And, they tore down the river court after One Tree Hill finished filming. -_-

Antwon Tanner! 

They would not let us take a photo with Lee, cause he had make up & a fat suit on. Basically, they didn't spoilers. pfft. However, there was a guy who was taking pictures. Not sure if he got into trouble or not. Oh well. So after we were done with the river court, we went to the area near Tric, to get a glimpse of Sophia Bush. We waited 3 hours and it was worth it. 

Sophia Bush! Who then gave me a high five when I told her that it took me 24 hours in total

to get to Wilmington, NC. 

Austin didn't come out to see us :( 

After that, we went for lunch at the Dixie Grill, where a lot of scenes with Austin Nichols were shot here. The food was good! I will go back when I can, with my own money, to do an actual tour of OTH, with the houses and all. In the next 5 years hopefully, for my own closure :P 

Once we were done with lunch, we tried waiting for Bethany Joy Lenz & Paul Johansson. I think they told us to move back a bit/ filming might take longer, so we didn't get to see them.

All in all, it was a good experience. Here are my tips if you plan on visiting a place, just to watch your favourite show film.

1. Do your research on the place you plan to visit. Find out all the locations you want to go to & if you can get to them easily.
2. Dedicated fan forums usually have someone list out if they are filming in a certain location, so be sure to check those out. If you have someone on the inside, even better :P
3. If you can make a friend, like how I was able to, you're good to go. Plus, it will be a friend a for life ;)
4. Last but not least, check your photo's to make sure that you have taken a good photo. The last thing you need is a blurry/out of focus picture, that you can't brag about.

5 days in Wilmington was certainly not enough, which is why I went back in 2013, in the hopes of going to see some of the house & to catch up with Lisa & Kendall. More on that in the upcoming blog posts.

Happy New Year! (I know I'm late)

Happy New Year and I am finally back from my unnecessary hiatus! 2013 was an interesting one with a bunch of travels, adventures & eating things as June reminded me. I well get to my sushi eating experience at the end of this post :)

So, new year, new goals blah blah blah. I need a job & I need money. I also need to make sure I put out content consistently and be elaborate about certain things but maybe keep it short & sweet (what am I doing??)

The life achievements I would like to unlock this year are, (calling them achievements because life is pretty much a game)

1. Finally get my washboard abs by my 24th birthday
2. Start playing the piano again & be able to play Sara Bareilles's King Of Anything, Love Song, Hercules & Brave (getting a wee bit over my head xD )
3. Learn to play the guitar
4. Finish reading the Pendragon book series. 1-9.
5. Cook everything from 1 Jamie Oliver book
6. Master my DSLR & have a printout of some of my awesome shots *thumbs up*
7. Learn to speak Tamil. 

So far, it is the 7th of January, I have not cooked, have not read Pendragon, have not played the piano. I have been learning a little bit of Tamil, however it is not enough to order anything from an Indian restaurant. *shy*

My room has been in a mess, my camera needs to be sent for repair, I NEED A JOB. Should change the title of this post to I need a job, post my resume here and pray for a miracle. I'm joking. Maybe I'm not. 

I also need to make videos. There has to be a way to make this work. D: 

I hope you can complete your goals for the year & virtual high five if you're on track. I'll see you this Sunday with a continuation of my travels to Wilmington Part 1, while I scramble to put together all my other stories. 

Good night!

Wilmington (September 2011) Part 1

I'm planning on doing a couple of Travel posts, because I haven't done them at all, even on my old blog. So here's one long overdue post of my adventure in Wilmington, North Carolina in 2011.

The trip began with a disaster. Mum and I chose to fly with Emirates, so we can arrive in JFK Airport (NYC) by Friday at 7am, to catch a 11am flight to Wilmington. A delay in KL, caused a delay in Dubai, which eventually caused us to buy another ticket from NY to Wilmington. Talk about a domino effect.
This is what happened, as far as I can remember.

Flight from KL to Dubai was planned at 8.30pm. Due to some complications with the plane, we left at 10.30 or 11pm. This would mean, when we arrived in Dubai, it was 1.50am +/-. The flight that leaves Dubai for New York was at 2.30am. They did not let us get on the plane, they put us on a 8am flight, which means the plane ticket we bought for NY to Wilmington, boom, no way of exchanging or getting back any cash. We had to buy another set of tickets to Wilmy & that did cost us quite a bit. Thanks for that Emirates airlines, you guys suck, and NO, despite your replies via emails, you DID NOT do your best to help us out. An Emirates staff at KLIA told us someone will take care of us in Dubai, that did NOT happen. You could have delayed the 2.30am flight but you didn't. So screw you Emirates, I will never fly with you ever again.

After all the drama, arriving in JFK airport, then on to a shuttle bus for $12.50 to take us to La Guardia, the other airport, for our next flight to Wilmington. After a 2 layovers, we finally arrived in Wilmington, North Carolina. Here is the photo of the plane we were on. If this looks small to you, it was smaller on the inside.

I believe we had a free taxi, from the hotel come get us at the airport. The airport was nice small & cute. Will update the pictures of the airport on my next trip in September. After arriving at the hotel, my mum asked the concierge about the discount she could not get online. They were really awesome, they gave her the discount that she was talking about. BOOMZ! Holiday Inn Wilmington, you rock! :)

Here is the picture of our breakfast on Saturday! Awesome pancakes & awesome orange juice. Again, will update price & pictures this year :P

Screen Gems only has studio tours on Saturday. SADLY, we could NOT take pictures of the set, as the show was still going on. We saw Red Bedroom Records, which pretty much has everything to function as a real recording studio. We also went into Brooke's beach house & Nathan & Haley's house. 

Dinner on Saturday was at Arby's, a fast food joint, which had some of the cutest notes on their food boxes.

The next day was Sunday, mum and I went downtown to check out some of the iconic places that you'd see in "One Tree Hill".

Karen's Cafe.

This is not a hospital, but they used the exterior of the building for that shot. 

The intersection just outside Karen's Cafe.

Artsy Fartsy wall. Not sure if they finally renovated this, because you can see this in season 5, 

in a deleted scene of Luke & Haley walking past this.

The fountain that Brooke & Jamie had ice cream at, same one where Haley performed with girl who 

sang the song for Tangled. *my memory is so bad* 

The fountain where a lot of Keith & Lucas scene's were shot at..

The RIVER COURT! Where it all began for Lucas & Nathan. 

They tore the place down after the show ended :(

The "don't say I never gave you anything" spot was actually just placed somewhere else :P 

On Sunday I found out that OTH was going to be filming at Topsail beach on Monday, 1 hour away from Wilmington. I really wanted to go, because there was a good chance of meeting Shantel VanSanten & Robert Buckley. Thanks to twitter & because kindness rocks, my new friend, Lisa who was going to check it out, picked me up from the hotel & we went to Topsail beach. I asked Lisa if she could give me a ride, on twitter :P and she was awesome & she did!

Clay & Quinn's Beach house! 

A paparazzi shot. D: Failed one at that haha!

The very gorgeous Shantel VanSanten.

We didn't meet Robert :( but hey, better something than nothing.

In my next post, the food I ate, more OTH stuff & more pictures with the cast. 

Phantom Of The Opera (Singapore 2013)

On the 26th of July, my mum and I along with my brother (Kam), his girlfriend (Joanna) & her mum went to watch 'The Phantom Of The Opera' at Marina Bay Sands in Singapore. It was quite a race because Kam, Jo & her mum were running a bit late. They went to pick up the tickets for the show first, then joined my mum & I at Jamie Oliver's Restaurant (will blog about that place in another post)

So, Phantom of the Opera.

 

 I remember reading the short version in Form 2, as it was compulsory. I was basically trying to recall the story as I was watching it. Not something I advise you to do. I did bring a copy of the book, the full version, but didn't have time to read it as I was in Legoland or resting. *cough* excuses *cough*

We bought the 145$ tickets, the green zone. I felt that our seats weren't the best. It was a full house. Really wished I spent an additional 20$ (Singapore Dollars) for seats in the front, unless they were already booked. Back to the seats; maybe the speakers were not working that day? I don't know, but I didn't really enjoy it. Until I got back home to Shah Alam & listened to the songs again on youtube. Then I WAS IN LOVE WITH THE MUSIC! *fangirling*

Should you go watch it? Yes, spend the money & get good seats. Since it's not often that Malaysia gets to stage a Broadway show *cough* very rare *cough*, head down to Singapore to go watch it. I'm hoping to watch it again, maybe in New York.

Not convinced? I took this from youtube. This is from the Brit Awards last year. I couldn't find a proper mic-ed version from the press preview.



Excited? Show runs until the 1st of September! Get your tickets right here!

Genius at work back in action

Greeting fellow earthlings. I know it has been months, but I am back for good. With blogpost every Sunday, updates via the Facebook page > www.facebook.com/iamsuemitraa and not forgetting the Vlog on Wednesdays on Youtube > http://www.youtube.com/iamsuemitraa

Here is the July Update for my vlog. Don't forget to subscribe!

I will be back with a kickass post next Sunday & a super awesome video on Wednesday. 

Over and out ;) 

I'm done.

Over thinking. Putting on a mask & bringing the alter ego to life. Building a wall so high, knowing no one is gonna break it down. Replaying the past knowing it's not gonna change anything, but just make you upset.

There is no beauty in the attempt of breaking down this wall. It's either you break it or you leave it alone.

Then you wonder, have you made a difference in anyone's life? Or are you a figment of their imagination because you wonder if you are real.

Putting other people aside, have you made a difference for yourself? Have you grown? When you broke, did you heal or are you walking around with scars that you're desperately trying to hide?

Songs trigger memories, songs saving you from that black hole. Waking up the next day, putting all this behind.

Dying for change, but then you don't know where to start? Where is the support system? Do you have a team helping you through all of this? If you do, good. If you don't, you're gonna have to learn to pick yourself up.

You're the superhero for everyone else but where is your hero? Where's the one or two that should be there for you?

I'm done.

Over thinking. Putting on a mask & bringing the alter ego to life. Building a wall so high, knowing no one is gonna break it down. Replaying the past knowing it's not gonna change anything, but just make you upset.

There is no beauty in the attempt of breaking down this wall. It's either you break it or you leave it alone.

Then you wonder, have you made a difference in anyone's life? Or are you a figment of their imagination because you wonder if you are real.

Putting other people aside, have you made a difference for yourself? Have you grown? When you broke, did you heal or are you walking around with scars that you're desperately trying to hide?

Songs trigger memories, songs saving you from that black hole. Waking up the next day, putting all this behind.

Dying for change, but then you don't know where to start? Where is the support system? Do you have a team helping you through all of this? If you do, good. If you don't, you're gonna have to learn to pick yourself up.

You're the superhero for everyone else but where is your hero? Where's the one or two that should be there for you?

Wish list 2013

What's going on? Hope your Friday is treating you well. Last night I was thinking of my wish list that I made way back in 2007. In the list I had wrote places to travel to & things to buy. Never in my life I would have imagined to have actually accomplished some of those things. I'll post it up next week because I wrote like 50 items *bahaha*

So, for 2013, here is the brand new & improved wish list:

1. Learn to surf 
2. Act in a short film. Try 5 different types of characters. 
3. Start swimming again. 
4. Learn to play the guitar. 
5. Start playing the piano again 
6. Trip to Africa, to see some actual wild life. 
7. Learn to cook (finish cooking 1 book of Jamie Oliver) 
8. Meet Chad Michael Murray 
9. Meet Shay Mitchell 
10. Play Nerf with Michelle Rodriguez

I think 1, 3-7 should be pretty easy. The acting one would take some time but it could work. 8,9,10 must happen :P be it in Malaysia or in the US. 

So what is the 10 things on your wish list? 

Wish list 2013

What's going on? Hope your Friday is treating you well. Last night I was thinking of my wish list that I made way back in 2007. In the list I had wrote places to travel to & things to buy. Never in my life I would have imagined to have actually accomplished some of those things. I'll post it up next week because I wrote like 50 items *bahaha*

So, for 2013, here is the brand new & improved wish list:

1. Learn to surf 
2. Act in a short film. Try 5 different types of characters. 
3. Start swimming again. 
4. Learn to play the guitar. 
5. Start playing the piano again 
6. Trip to Africa, to see some actual wild life. 
7. Learn to cook (finish cooking 1 book of Jamie Oliver) 
8. Meet Chad Michael Murray 
9. Meet Shay Mitchell 
10. Play Nerf with Michelle Rodriguez

I think 1, 3-7 should be pretty easy. The acting one would take some time but it could work. 8,9,10 must happen :P be it in Malaysia or in the US. 

So what is the 10 things on your wish list? 

You may say I'm dreamer, but I'm not the only one.

After watching an episode of Sesame Street back in 1993, I decided that I wanted to be a Vet. I wanted to help animals as much as I could. Years went by and the only time I didn't want to be a vet was when I could not get into Form 6 to do my studies locally.

The last I checked, to study veterinary science overseas was really expensive. I don't know how much it is now, but then again, it would not make a difference.

When I did not resit my SPM (i wanted to do it a year later, trying to study for it la), my brother said "Go & give Mass communications a shot." I did, I liked it, it's interesting & it is not for stupid people. LOL.

However, with my diploma in Mass communications and my passion for animals, the new dream job became a wild life film maker. I love making videos & animals, so BOOM = kick ass job. I may not be able to do it just yet, but I can film the wild animal I own, who goes by the name of Pepsi. haha, she's my dog by the way.

Back to the title, I love to dream big, because hey, it's my dream to do these things. It's my expectation for myself & I must find a way to meet my own expectations, because it would make me happy, saying I can do something and actually achieving it. *thumbs up*

Dream big, dream wild because it's your dream. Don't give up when the whole world is against you. Dust off the sand & stand strong, you know you can do it ;)

You may say I'm dreamer, but I'm not the only one.

After watching an episode of Sesame Street back in 1993, I decided that I wanted to be a Vet. I wanted to help animals as much as I could. Years went by and the only time I didn't want to be a vet was when I could not get into Form 6 to do my studies locally.

The last I checked, to study veterinary science overseas was really expensive. I don't know how much it is now, but then again, it would not make a difference.

When I did not resit my SPM (i wanted to do it a year later, trying to study for it la), my brother said "Go & give Mass communications a shot." I did, I liked it, it's interesting & it is not for stupid people. LOL.

However, with my diploma in Mass communications and my passion for animals, the new dream job became a wild life film maker. I love making videos & animals, so BOOM = kick ass job. I may not be able to do it just yet, but I can film the wild animal I own, who goes by the name of Pepsi. haha, she's my dog by the way.

Back to the title, I love to dream big, because hey, it's my dream to do these things. It's my expectation for myself & I must find a way to meet my own expectations, because it would make me happy, saying I can do something and actually achieving it. *thumbs up*

Dream big, dream wild because it's your dream. Don't give up when the whole world is against you. Dust off the sand & stand strong, you know you can do it ;)